Recently I had a conversation with a friend who has issues with anxiety and stress. We share a common bond in that we don’t know how to create balance. I find I can go for weeks being busy every evening and weekend, then I’ll think “oh, I really should slow down for a week,” only to feel totally bored by my third evening in a row going home after work.
See I try to create some sort of balance and routine; two evenings at the gym, one evening at home and the rest for me to socialise and do as I wish. But, as my friend and I discussed, if we do it too much it stresses us out and then leaves us feeling empty when we have nothing going on.
I understand it’s good not to do anything. Who doesn’t love an evening at home reading about Alan Partridge’s heroic trek to Dungeness Power Station? I know I do. But struggling to switch my brain off at night when I know I have another two weeks of ‘stuff going on’ I do not love.
And that’s why I have returned to this blog. Maybe it’s good to get this out there?
Maybe my brain creates problems when there isn’t any?
I have tried all sorts of things. Lavender oil on my pillowcase, behind the counter sleep aids, no cheese before bed no screens.
It’s not like this happens every night, but when it does – it takes me out for an entire day.